I saw the bum on a bridge or' Truckee rapid
ice-tattered battered freezin' below thirty.
This veteran's horror story isn't vapid
but a painful lesson learned down and dirty.
but a painful lesson learned down and dirty.
Hey shelter's nice to stretch out and lay
for those cold-tired of searching
conscientious anarchy's way
for better worlds one's more nurturing.
Shelters are cheap suits the vagrant declared
false hope with no opportune time anew.
White light glares human nature's never cared
will those suff''rin' know where you come from too?
Therefore if you're searchin' for warmer seasons
follow observation and drop deductive reasons!
Hurrah! In rushed the grunts. “He’s back with us again came the sneers. Your problem is quite the spectacle to see Mr. Kraft. And we're here to remove it and get you out of our way. So, any how! Let’s hear about more of your measly complaints on why you believe you're being held up”.
“Well let me see", I slobbered. "Judging by the sadistic look of your shadow’s identity, to hype me again with tradition designed to quill my sedition”?
“That logo you refer to belongs with The Great Corporate Seals, but never have you minded, and by the way Mr. Kraft, neither do you obey! Again, that’s why you've been held up today” Tubs burped—its dank, dark, retched,stench-ridden identity seething with some powerful f'ing contempt above and all around me.
Exposing myself, I then glared at my inquisitors with life’s cold look I’d been conditioned to muster for intense circumstances just like this. “You're never going to get these values out of me. I will never be silenced when speaking about life's pain which makes existence so sad. It's like you're trying to do an inside jab (err, job) on me”. Then, swaggering with clinical pride and arrogance symbolism, another identity; shielded of course by its logo, joked about the futility of attempting to yank these two spooks—its word not mine—out.
“We've tried, the logos cried, but we still can’t get the freedom and liberty's thoughts out of him! It seems like they've always grown to be nurtured from the inside of these damned jerks”. I grimaced in pain as they tried yanking them from within me by squeezing my hands tightly into fists and gnashing my teeth. Of course, by this time I’d also curled up onto a pancake-looking, flea ridden, soggy-rotten, stinking-to-the-max, floor mattress into a potato-bug-looking ball.
Suddenly the logo’s serpents on its caduceus were staring at me from behind Tubs. As they slithered onto me and up between my legs, one bit down on my "you know what". That's right, oh yes it did! It put a death grip on me with its fangs and wouldn't let go. It's head rose and body coiled. As it kept yanking and I kept screaming, it still couldn't remove freedom and liberty's precious values from within me.
“What the hell does the PhD on your logo stand for, post-hole digger”? I yelled as johnny was imploding—how insane!
“Behave yourself and don’t protest Andy. You’re the unlucky one, because our door has always been open for you to pass through. You could have crossed through anytime, but you and your few chose not to. Therefore, our door is forever closed to all of you.We know who you all are, what you do, and whom you see. Anytime we may pay any of you a visit, so just shut up; because, that’s what your concern should be”.
Being careful not to get a fang—you know, jabbed into me; I rolled over on my side and extended my left arm out in front of me with my right arm underneath. I then reached down to my side and grabbed a bulging bag of urine, boosted myself up on an elbow, and lobbed a forward piss (err, a pass) onto their ghosts. One laughed that it had, had me in good fangs, but the other started hissing, "I could care less. I can't think of anything good Andy Kraft's brought into our life"!
Dizzy and light headed from obvious-to-only-me stress: I began to observe Tubs more carefully. Its logo was attempting to portray compassion while secretly its shadow’s identity was creating vast disasters with caustic strength—terribly awesome, although just plain nasty and not so colorful. But, I knew what the logo’s symbolism was really up to and trying to hide.
“Hey, you know what”? I cried in anger when Slick’s eye gazed at me through its dirty, rust-haloed, greasy light. What horror-able tragedy against nature are you going to spew up next? The deception of your identity's logo is going to be exposed. I intend to tell everyone too. So, screw you!
“Watch your language; you've been warned about colorful speech before. “That’s one of the reasons we've held you up”, Tubs spit up with a gnarly squeal.
“Vivid speech has always been protected speech! You’re legislative abominations designed to call yourselves people. What unconstitutional thugs you are put me in a predicament like this. And just look at that slime all over you. Who in hell do you think the Homo sapiens in here are anyway? That's right Bozos, just me! Look here, you dim wits! I’m the one who should have freedom and liberty. Humans should have the say; therefore, Homo sapiens, not fictions, should have their way".
“It’s you who has conformance issues Mr. Kraft”; Tubs spewed again in rage as my measly, small insignificant world shook all around me.
“The issue here is opportunity—not equality or entitlement. Homo sapiens won’t be placated. You’re tactics destroy competition. How much money have you stolen from the producers; how many entrepreneurs and wage earners have you frustrated who once were dedicated, and how many products and services have you cheaply replicated”?
“That’s why you’re the person of interest. Good government has contracted us to restrain you or take you out so to speak. We’re here to assure them you’ll remain silent and obey. You know that saying for slowpokes! It’s the good old-fashioned way”.
“That’s right, because I don’t like frolicking with lost and dead souls! You’re the cold-blooded identities who compromise liberty and justice in every way. Only while asleep or medicated can Americans dream while the rest of nature screams. We once lead the world; now, that’s all we can say”.
“Bravo, Mr. Kraft; we can see that your speech is decorated. It appeals to warm hearts, virtuous, free and honorable souls, working together as harmony goes. But these values don’t concern us; our ethic won’t be reconciled. Your conscientious values and beliefs of what’s good, bad, right, or wrong have nothing to do with our global philosophy. So why not just corporate; we'll make some adjustments till…”
Then, before my eyes, another shadow’s identity swarmed up around me and metamorphosed into the logo of a red woodpecker’s sexy smile and ivory beak. But as I looked deeper into it, why was there no face?
“Everything you’ll do has been predetermined, can't you see. Therefore, you have no control over your freedom or liberty. We’ll even hold you responsible for what you turn out to be”! Electra chirped.
“I've seen the shadow of your identity before. You’re the woodpecker who chisels roads through trees killing America’s wildlife. You attack what is natural and supposedly free. You’re a fake and not what you pretend to be”; I was yelling at what seemed, again only to little me, to be the stare of its right eyelid as it shut then clicked back open again retorting, you betcha!
“That’s enough Mr. Kraft”; Tubs oozed in from behind. We've got the zeitgeist sucker; it’s our Spirit of the Times"!
“Not to worry Sludge, You know I’m no sage. But know the first chance I get, I’m exposing your treachery to everyone; it’s Conscientious Anarchy’s rage”.
“You’re not going anywhere, Andy”; Woodsy now adorned by its identity's protective logo, chirped again. “ You've been pulled out of the rank and file because of the severe fevers produced by your speech. You create delusions of freedom and liberty that cause our Homo sapiens to long for goals they can never reach. Unless you allow us to purge your plethora of the pleasant life, we’ll bust your sack of crap and alienate you from our compliant culture and society—the little people you’ll then be unable to teach”.
“Oh please let me go, so I can sit on that hill and dream like a child, watching butterflies, with their rush of tiny faces, fly by nature’s carousel of colors again”.
If you're ready and want to see
I will tell you how.
Cause seeing straight is so unreal and hard
You'll want children to sing and drums at play.
Everyone will laugh at fantasy occurring
In nature’s back yard.
Reality has left here today if visions
Seem like dreams that now feel real.
Within towering green elm
See the butterflies with bright eyes smiling.
As they flutter around a colossus carousel
Can you see them now?
Monarchs painted preternatural colors golden honey
And nature's creation oil.
Playing once post chrysalis when spring arrives
With her dampened soil.
Thousand millions flying through proximity's oasis
While everyone counted the myriad of their traces.
Brought into golden gate's subconscious spaces
Drums rolled we danced to songs of pretty faces.
“You impetuous shadowy identities! Now I see your admission for what it is: a sick commentary for Christ’s sake! Your charlatans feign hope on people who are brokenhearted and in despair. You seduce these hard working, religious people to believe you'll help and protect them—that you care. But they are exploited geese that your mega abominations grease. Behind their backs you laugh at their faith and joke about gullibility. You've even gone global now and call yourself A Peacemaker; but in reality you’re The Antichrist—a destroyer, taker, and human faker. How many police actions throughout the world are you going to create for dividends and profit? How many of the world’s souls are you going to obliterate"?
For what is the hope of the hypocrite, though
He hath gained, when God taketh away his soul?
Will God hear his cry when trouble cometh
Will he delight himself in the almighty? Will
He always call upon God?
I will teach you by the hand of God: that
Which is the Almighty I will not conceal.
How horrible can dreams be when you’re held up? But now, I awoke with thoughts and insights on how to channel anxiety and fear. Exaltation was gleaming from my entire soul. Were the phantom identities right? Is this why conforming isn't an option if I really want to experience Life of Simple Pleasures?
After days of intense spiritual indoctrination by competing logos, a little privacy was great. As I squatted, huddled tight in a closet Tubs had confined me to for swearing at and slandering an aggressive, proselytizing logo; I began to ponder what kind of non-stop zealous spanking I was going to receive next.
What felt like trash strewn underneath and all around me was almost getting comfortable on the cold, dark, dank, wet and sticky cement floor. Cramping, I fumbled around for a while and retrieved a small, little, green book. Squinting, I could barely read it in the sparse light. As I did a thumb through, it rang clear because its arguments were so neat and tidy. There were lines written in verse, that resembled lyrics of song, and others written as parables. Although, while digesting the information contemplating a decision, I began to get light-headed and dizzy thinking I’d witnessed another vision.
Maybe it was a coincidence on one hand or the shill of an identity’s logo screaming on the other. But, could this Little Book hold the key to the happiness dream? Should I try to let the identities hear me carrying on? I didn't understand much about this brainwashing stuff I was being compelled to endure; that was for sure. But anyway, I started yelling verse from The Little Book’s song.
“You’re not convincing me or any of the other identities Andy. Until you’re more meek and humble”, Tubs spewed from behind the door, “we’re going to continue holding you up. We may even produce a stress disorder or other mental illness in your life. We could expose you to America’s toxic environment for a long time without even allowing you to get connected. The society we've created has been adjusted from the just plain dumb on down, and our adjustment on morality is almost completed too; so our identity's logos can get away with just about anything they do”!
“What are all the threats for”? I screamed through the bolted door. Whom else are you going to ream? “Now that you identities have stolen the American dream, you want to inject society with piety and zeal treatments so you can rejuvenate a culture who doesn't scream.”
“You’re required to endure these treatments, Andy. We won’t release you because our diagnosis regarding your bad brain waves has already been made”.
“Oh so now I see! Your identities have rendered me a person of interest; because, they've determined I have passions and tact that do in fact conflict with the many unconstitutional laws against Homo sapiens you want to enact”.
“Critical thinking is very destructive to our environment Andy. It’s what’s gotten you into trouble; because, observation and induction confound our passionate and illogical deductions. We’re saying this because deep down, the conflict between your bad brain waves and conformance to a Life of Simple Pleasures is only in your sub-conscience mind”.
Suddenly, I began to feel another reverie coming on as I started mumbling in anger and fumbling through The Little Book’s pages.
In the beginning was the Word, and the
Word was with God, and the Word was God.
Word was with God, and the Word was God.
The same was in the beginning with God.
All Things were made by Him: and without
Him was not any thing made that was made.
In Him was life: and the life was the light of men.
John 1: 1-4
When I came to, Tubs was all over me force-feeding liquid down my nostrils with a bucket-like syringe. Looking around the room, I noticed its nasty goons had gone on a spree and taken me on a “Teleological Transport” during my spiritual glee. But where could this dungeon of dog-dung, brown walls and hard, cement floors be? I began to become suspicious of The Great Corporate Seals. Was this why I was experiencing these strange fits of religious piousness and zeal?
“What are the capsules for?” I sneered as Tubs O’ Sludge pasted two between my gnashing teeth with its thumb; “Any side effects”? I gulped for air as I was trying to spit them back at it.
“They have a psychotropic effect and together with our indoctrination, they’ll make you feel happy to be abused” the slime belched while pinching my windpipe and jamming pressure into my stomach.
As I was chocking for air, I began to black out. The thoughts and ideas that were flashing through my mind struck me as sort of contradictory. For one thing, I was sure the identities thought I was a pagan nihilist. But underneath it all, I’d started to experience a revival of traditional thought. Because, as my legs and arms were kicking and flailing in the air, I felt like I had the zeal and vitality of a true believer with no concern for secular values or its beliefs. I felt no worry, anger, or stress about the logo’s deceit or the identity’s tyranny. I’d been released, and it was time for me to save the world from cultural relativism—The Beast! I even began to see visions of what power I could attain while causing progressive secularists so much pain and disdain.
“Everything will be all right Mr. Kraft”, Tubs popped to a boil releasing its index finger and thumb from my throat. As I wheezed to catch my breath, a saturated sponge was quickly applied over my mouth and nose. All of a sudden, choking for air again, I began to experience this child-like curiosity for the uncertainty my torturers were producing. How was I going to propagate their dogma while I was being held up? I never stressed about this predicament though. Instead, as I was about to blackout again, I found myself focusing on a Psalm I’d been trying to memorize in The Little Book. The verse now came to mind as Tubs proceeded to intensify my torture, and following along, we both began to sing:
Hear me when I call, O God of my right-
eousness: thou hast enlarged me when I was
eousness: thou hast enlarged me when I was
in distress; have mercy upon me, and hear
“When you follow The Lamb, dogma will guide you. Therefore; you’ll do anything and everything you’re told do, and you’ll say exactly what we tell you to say”!
"How long are people going to continue to buy this stale joke? Or, are you telling us truth is on the Lamb? Who could ever fall for this scam?
"Again, just do as we say and follow The Lamb. His plan will be revealed someday; the lamb will lead the way"!
"How will I know what to do? Why does piety, dogma, and zeal require me to follow ewe"?
When the stench of Tubs revived me from rapture, I had an urge to urinate (err, fixate) on The Little Book, but more water treatments followed. Still lying face up on the gurney, Tubs sloshed, tilting the gurney backward at a forty-five degree angle.
As I started pissing my pants, I now began to see bloodshot, red writing underneath my eyelids.
How think ye? If a man have a hundred sheep, and
one of them be gone astray, doth he not leave the
ninety and nine and goeth into the mountains, and
seeketh that which is gone astray?
And if so be that he find it, verily I say unto You, he
rejoiceth more of that sheep, than of the Ninety and
nine which went not astray
Even so it is not the will of your Father Which is in
heaven, that one of these little ones should perish.
Saliva and snot was pouring out of me as Woody’s identity slid my body back out of the pool of water. Were these the words He spoke in Matthew, Mark, and Luke, Is He The Lamb? Gurgling again, I up-chucked more puke.
“I’m a painter”; I again choked catching my breath. “My pictures show people how and why they’re being abused”.
“You’re a Conscientious Anarchist”! Woodsy chirped. “You get your passion from deists like Jefferson, and what a troublemaker he is—that f'ing Paine. Confess and tell us now; you know you’re going to lose. Who else is your damned muse”?
“She’s a beautiful lady”; I continued to cough up snot and spit. “Her name is Liberty, and she delivers justice—freedom’s news”.
“I knew it", Woodsy hacked! "You’re the one who enjoys throwing hot embers throughout the straw of our compliant society to get your draw. You’re too hard to tame; and you claim, America will never be the same! But either you’ll accept religious dogma, absent affect-cause-affect, or our logos will dose you with religious piety again and again; and buster, nobody will have the courage and morality to ever object”!
The piety and zeal treatments did continue—even with Tubs heaping on extra servings before every force-fed meal. Overtime, I finally began to succumb. With all the passion and romance of my newly acquired zeal, I could now be cross-trained to proselytize faith in The Great Corporate Seals. All the while, I could chant the logo’s passionate rant instead of examining its identities deduced motivation (err, reason). Slowly, gosh darn; not damn, I began to get comfortable settling into the Life of Simple Pleasures’ scam even if I did have to tow the line and follow that flea-bitten, nag—The Lamb!